#大学生vlog #モチベーション #英語学習
Welcome and welcome back to my channel! How have you been doing, guys?
Honestly I went through a lot after I came back to Japan. I cannot share details but it is kinda shaking my values. Simply put it is about chasing dreams.
You should make your own choice and take ownership of your life. Alongside you gain your trust in yourself so you don’t need confidence at the starting point. Just dive in. If you are told what you are trying to do is delusional you can hear it out and take it but it is different from blindly accepting their word. Otherwise you lose your sight. This idea won’t change, I guess.
However, I might change my original plan. For a while I have been working on to find my way overseas as a journalist but turning into 21 and finding a job, I start to feel like it is too much to chase my dreams further on my own. I am sure it is exciting living purely for my passion but at the same time it is scary. I continuously have to fight with anxiety, uncertainties and everything mostly on my own and push my limits. I might have done with that stage. Recently tears roll down my cheeks whenever I attempt to picture future-self going overseas and building up my life and career from scratch all by myself.
That being said, I continue to work so so so hard since I like it. lol
But I will take more balanced options. I am really happy if you stick with me!
お久しぶりです！
しばらく休んでいた理由ですが、ちょっと最近色々ありまして将来の方向性に悩んでいたからです。
夢を追うこと、最大限の努力をすることが、このチャンネルのメッセージの1つだと思っています。私自身もその過程の中で自分への自信を積み重ねて少しずつ自分を好きになれたので、それを素敵だと思うのは今も変わりません。
しかしキャリア以外にもう少し時間を割きたいと思い始めたのです。留学を経て、海外で働きたいと思い始めジャーナリストとして海外で働く道を模索していました。しかし海外での院進がほぼマストになってくること、将来の不確定要素が多すぎることを考えると正直辛いなと思うのです。不可能だと諦めるというよりは、1人でキャリアのために生き続けるのは私のやりたいことではないという感じです。
とはいえ（安定性がもう少しある道を選ぶだけで）努力し続ける日々は変わらないと思うので、これからも応援してくださると嬉しいです！
